Suicide is for Quitters

For the second time in the past few weeks, I have strongly entertained the idea of taking my own life. Preceding both breakdowns was something negative that happened. And both times, after reflecting on my thoughts from the heat of the moment, I have ultimately determined that suicide is the least masculine, most pathetic thing someone can do. Life sucks. Death probably doesn't. I'd much rather be dead than be alive. But ending everything because you refuse to face your problems is the same thing as shutting off your xbox because you're playing poorly in Call of Duty. You don't shut it off if you ever want to succeed in it. You double down, learn from your mistakes, gain experience, work, and overcome the system of your oppressors. You can't keep someone down who doesn't want to be kept down, who won't accept it. Suicide isn't screaming FUCK YOU at your oppressors, challenges, and difficulties. Suicide is refusing to stand up for yourself. Suicide is eliminating the possibility of reclaiming your honor, dignity, and whatever you stand for. While I am not the type of person to force virtues I extol onto others, and prefer to let others find their own meanings and rules for life, there are universal virtues. These virtues, although they can be expressed in different forms, all have the same identity at their cores. One of these universal virtues, the second most important one is to always stay true to yourself. This virtue can be expressed through honesty, accountability, discipline, hard work, and sacrifice. The most important virtue, however, is to stay true to others. This virtue is expressed the same ways as staying true to yourself; however, the primary motivation is the betterment of other people. No one person on his own is all that important. And in all honesty, one man killing himself will not create much of a ripple in society, and it would be ignored in the grand scheme of things. However, on a personal level, suicide is something that spits in the face of every human virtue that is objectively good. Suicide is cowardly. Suicide is dishonest. Suicide is undisciplined. Suicide is the most pathetic thing someone could do to deal with their problems.